Saudade

I sailed 
The sea of terror
Knowing it went
Off to infinity
On to infinity
There was me
And there was no me
Staying afloat 
And drowning
No way to know
I was this stormy sea
And this stormy sea was me
Mutely both irritation 
In the oyster
And the pearl coming to be
In the bivalve
That filtered the terror  
Drowned in the sea
As I floated
Away in the sky of me
Sigh of me
Saudade saudade