Reclaim?
A fierce forbidding monster I have found inside me which before I could not see because I was merged with it, so forbade the joy of me, flower of my power silent catastrophe of what was mine just because it seemed to me to be me, most delicate of dissections, I feared that the scalpel of hope would leave no me what I see separated staggers me, its strange and familiar enormity, mother of shadow and mother of stone, most destructive of my own creations befriend the fierce and forbidding monster? reclaim force of intimate delusion?