Not Elective

My intimate impediment I am,
impulsive force, repulsive force, my goad,
I part oppose all I also propose,
I'm defective dialectic of hope

in time of catastrophe, I go fast
and slow, I do not give ground, but I plot
the trajectory of my flight, how I'd flee
in the face of a dire necessity

each moment conceals its possibility,
what might seem straightfo…