For/Against

I struggle for/against my singing self,
I lean against  it as it leans on me,
sometimes I feel it holds a lien on me
that I have no clue how I might discharge

am I but an appurtenance of it,
or is it some deep faculty of me
that instructs me in how to take my part,
how to disassemble my dissembling?

there is a facility of touch that song has
to reach …